I MISS YOU
From the date I've been here.. I have missed so many things in my life.. just thought of making it down here as I feel like I can not go on anymore.. I was in tears in the afternoon when I think about all the things that I have sacrifice just to make other life a success. Maybe the statement is very much selfish but I just felt it that way... Just wanna remember when I am 41 years older, how I felt the fist year end of my 31 years.... So here we go....
My Little Angel - Gesandi Duwa......
Remembering you will give tears in my eyes.. Even now I have tears in my eyes ( feel so scared that my room mate will see the tears as I don't want her to see me crying). You were a turn back point in my life.. Leaving you in SL and coming was the hardest decision that I've made in my life.. It was not that difficult for me to leave my parents and come out. When I remember how I played with you and made fun out of everything and when I remember your smile and the way I tickled you... It kills me in side.. I know no one .. no one can take my place for you... not your Appachchi or Attammai.. I am guilty of leaving you can coming without your whole with your Amma. But I hope one day when you are all grown up you will realize that I did all these things for you... your future.. I hope I am not too late to make thing right.. waiting to give this life to you by next year.. Dear God please help me to..... Miss you sooooo much my little du patiya.. I'm longing to see you with me...
Kamal.......
You don't know how angry I was with you when I was coming here. You ill-treated me so much.. sometimes if it is not for our daughter I am not with you anymore.. So many misunderstanding and so many things I have silently bared. But when I come to SL I really understood that we are really meant to be.. Its not just 6 years of marriage life... Its so many things that we have had as a family.. The bond that we had was renewed on November 2013.. I started to love you more and more.. Just saw the other side of you. Love you lots and miss you soooo much...
My Family
Even though you all were not getting along with me properly, I miss you guys.. you all were there for me when I am in need.. There were time that we do not agree with each other and there were times that we had very serious fights.. but the bond of our blood cannot be shaken in any case... Amma you are my guardian angel sent from heaven above.Though you couldn't give me a proper childhood now you give that for my little one... That's more than enough for me.. she is learning all her life a b c from you... I'm so much grateful to you for that... she is in better hands.. I miss all the good time that I spent with you.. during my trouble you were a good listener... I miss all the little chats we had in the evenings.. Miss you a lot amma... I wish I can turn the world in to the place that you want it to be where you will be happily living....
Dhammika
Miss seeing you often.. But when I heard that you have asked about me I was thrilled as now I know that there is a small soft corner in your heart for me. I miss spending my life with you for the goodness of both of us and even we are parted in the path of life we see each other as strangers... I have no idea what you are doing now.. But thanks for the concern....Its nice to see your face once in a while. I had a dream of you last night and you were speaking about my Dubai journey in a very comfortable way... Miss you...
Arvind...
Miss you a lot my extraordinary friend.. As I misunderstood you as an extraordinary friend.. life is too short Arvind. you have to get over it and live the life that you want to be... your qualifications does not give any life lessons to you, but your experience do.. You at once turned in to be someone that don't even know.. so I don't know you anymore.. Miss all the good time we had together as very good friends.. I respect you for the way you treated me.. We will never be the same again..Miss you my friend....
Suran
Thank you so much for all the support that you gave me when I was a total stranger to an unknown country.. But even though we know each other 7,8 years back.. I don't know this girl call surangika who lives in Dubai.
. I know all your burden that you carry on your shoulders for the family but life is too short to have time for jealousy, showoff and two side of face.. trust is a big factor Surangika.. you turned in to be a third grade person in my view of life as you try to show every one that you are happy when you are not and try to humiliate others and criticize with other who really trust you and have faith on you... laughing at some one when that person is not available is as bad as laughing at that person to the face. Now you are not a child any more so for God's sake grow up my friend.. 27 years means you don't have to wait for a second chance. Be a little mature.. you can do it.. Miss you suran all the good time that I had with you.. you are not the my type of friend.. so I should let you go..
Ranil
I do not miss you... But need to mention something specially for you here.. Though you were a manager of mine 11 years back now you have become a good friend..The Ranil that I knew 11 years back is not the same person who is living now..I am very happy for it.. I love this new Ranil that I got to know 2 months back and I love everything about you. You and I are going through a very much similar period right now. I see sometimes that you are gone so silent.. but want you to now one thing.. In my life I have gone through more difficult incidents than you which I have never told you or mention anything to you about.. but just remember my experience is.. It doesn't rain everyday.. It will be brightly sunny one day.. though I have not gone through what you are going through right now, I have gone through very close to it... close like a needle pin...So you don't have to tell me how hard it is.. believe me I know all the pain and suffering included to this package. Now I go through something different but the pain is the same... I am happy you share your life a bit by bit.. I pray for you to feel more less pain when you go through this issue. Luckily your mother is with you.. you can make her happy from any way that you know and have a big blessing... I do not want to miss you... wishing for a good friendship which will not end-up in shortly.
CHRISTMAS
Christmas in 2013... Oh I wish I have you in my pocket... But unfortunately I don't have you this your.. God has taken you away from me. No baby Jesus will born for me this time... No decorations,no santa, no Christmas trees, no Christmas mass or no family gathering.. Miss you too much Christmas and dying to have a little Christmas with me.. This year you will give me loneliness and sadness.... I feel so lonely and I feels like crying out loud but I can't.. need a little bit of courage to go on... Miss you Christmas.. I didn't even feel you are coming this year...Please note that I don't want to miss you next year...
My Little Angel - Gesandi Duwa......
Remembering you will give tears in my eyes.. Even now I have tears in my eyes ( feel so scared that my room mate will see the tears as I don't want her to see me crying). You were a turn back point in my life.. Leaving you in SL and coming was the hardest decision that I've made in my life.. It was not that difficult for me to leave my parents and come out. When I remember how I played with you and made fun out of everything and when I remember your smile and the way I tickled you... It kills me in side.. I know no one .. no one can take my place for you... not your Appachchi or Attammai.. I am guilty of leaving you can coming without your whole with your Amma. But I hope one day when you are all grown up you will realize that I did all these things for you... your future.. I hope I am not too late to make thing right.. waiting to give this life to you by next year.. Dear God please help me to..... Miss you sooooo much my little du patiya.. I'm longing to see you with me...
Kamal.......
You don't know how angry I was with you when I was coming here. You ill-treated me so much.. sometimes if it is not for our daughter I am not with you anymore.. So many misunderstanding and so many things I have silently bared. But when I come to SL I really understood that we are really meant to be.. Its not just 6 years of marriage life... Its so many things that we have had as a family.. The bond that we had was renewed on November 2013.. I started to love you more and more.. Just saw the other side of you. Love you lots and miss you soooo much...
My Family
Even though you all were not getting along with me properly, I miss you guys.. you all were there for me when I am in need.. There were time that we do not agree with each other and there were times that we had very serious fights.. but the bond of our blood cannot be shaken in any case... Amma you are my guardian angel sent from heaven above.Though you couldn't give me a proper childhood now you give that for my little one... That's more than enough for me.. she is learning all her life a b c from you... I'm so much grateful to you for that... she is in better hands.. I miss all the good time that I spent with you.. during my trouble you were a good listener... I miss all the little chats we had in the evenings.. Miss you a lot amma... I wish I can turn the world in to the place that you want it to be where you will be happily living....
Dhammika
Miss seeing you often.. But when I heard that you have asked about me I was thrilled as now I know that there is a small soft corner in your heart for me. I miss spending my life with you for the goodness of both of us and even we are parted in the path of life we see each other as strangers... I have no idea what you are doing now.. But thanks for the concern....Its nice to see your face once in a while. I had a dream of you last night and you were speaking about my Dubai journey in a very comfortable way... Miss you...
Arvind...
Miss you a lot my extraordinary friend.. As I misunderstood you as an extraordinary friend.. life is too short Arvind. you have to get over it and live the life that you want to be... your qualifications does not give any life lessons to you, but your experience do.. You at once turned in to be someone that don't even know.. so I don't know you anymore.. Miss all the good time we had together as very good friends.. I respect you for the way you treated me.. We will never be the same again..Miss you my friend....
Suran
Thank you so much for all the support that you gave me when I was a total stranger to an unknown country.. But even though we know each other 7,8 years back.. I don't know this girl call surangika who lives in Dubai.
. I know all your burden that you carry on your shoulders for the family but life is too short to have time for jealousy, showoff and two side of face.. trust is a big factor Surangika.. you turned in to be a third grade person in my view of life as you try to show every one that you are happy when you are not and try to humiliate others and criticize with other who really trust you and have faith on you... laughing at some one when that person is not available is as bad as laughing at that person to the face. Now you are not a child any more so for God's sake grow up my friend.. 27 years means you don't have to wait for a second chance. Be a little mature.. you can do it.. Miss you suran all the good time that I had with you.. you are not the my type of friend.. so I should let you go..
Ranil
I do not miss you... But need to mention something specially for you here.. Though you were a manager of mine 11 years back now you have become a good friend..The Ranil that I knew 11 years back is not the same person who is living now..I am very happy for it.. I love this new Ranil that I got to know 2 months back and I love everything about you. You and I are going through a very much similar period right now. I see sometimes that you are gone so silent.. but want you to now one thing.. In my life I have gone through more difficult incidents than you which I have never told you or mention anything to you about.. but just remember my experience is.. It doesn't rain everyday.. It will be brightly sunny one day.. though I have not gone through what you are going through right now, I have gone through very close to it... close like a needle pin...So you don't have to tell me how hard it is.. believe me I know all the pain and suffering included to this package. Now I go through something different but the pain is the same... I am happy you share your life a bit by bit.. I pray for you to feel more less pain when you go through this issue. Luckily your mother is with you.. you can make her happy from any way that you know and have a big blessing... I do not want to miss you... wishing for a good friendship which will not end-up in shortly.
CHRISTMAS
Christmas in 2013... Oh I wish I have you in my pocket... But unfortunately I don't have you this your.. God has taken you away from me. No baby Jesus will born for me this time... No decorations,no santa, no Christmas trees, no Christmas mass or no family gathering.. Miss you too much Christmas and dying to have a little Christmas with me.. This year you will give me loneliness and sadness.... I feel so lonely and I feels like crying out loud but I can't.. need a little bit of courage to go on... Miss you Christmas.. I didn't even feel you are coming this year...Please note that I don't want to miss you next year...
